SPM paling rare !

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

In the name of Allah, the most merciful and compassionate.

The tiny dots of starting point are becoming more visible as I ended SPM almost 4 days ago. It was actually a meaningful triumph as I was battling and strive hard for this big examination. All praises to God for providing me swords of strength and shields of supports from my family and friends. Many praised me for my bravery but I would not take any credit for it as it was a plan arranged by the Almighty God Himself. I'm just a mere dirty soul who seeks forgiveness and always asking for help and accommodation. He was everything I've had and He provided me everything that I need. I'm forever grateful for all the oxygen and carbon dioxide that I inhaled and exhaled throughout my entire life. 

Soooo, actually, I did not attend school for almost a month already. 

 If truth be told, I wasn't taking SPM in the school as I have a special need regarding my deteriorating mental health. Thus, my mom opted me for sitting the exam in a psychiatric government hospital. Alhamdulillah, all went well.

For the first six subjects ( excluding Bahasa Melayu), There were actually a bunch of 18 yeared old warriors coming from a different school and different illnesses were participating in the battle alongside me. There were three warriors precisely. With the support of their mothers, they have fought bravely and had done a stupendous job in overcoming their fearful and intrusive thoughts.

Alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal .

 Weyh , nak tahu tak kenapa SPM ni paling rare  bagi aku ? 

Well, salah satu sebabnya.. 

* jeng,jeng,jeng* 

                    *Drum roll please !*

aku tak payah pakai baju sekolah !

Yes, you read it right, I never touched nor wear any single garments related to school attire.

 No more kain biru, No more tudung putih!

 I was free to choose my own clothing and styles every day according to my preferences.

1) 1/3/21

I choose Green-themed outfit for Mathematics because I want to calm my haywired mind after pressing too much digits on the calculator . Dengan graf yang macam roller coasternya ! Memeningkann ~

Hijau buat sister mengigau <333

2) 2/3/21

My mother's special day was on this day. Therefore, I settle on the fiery red-themed outfit to step up my courage and confidence in answering Physics's paper!

                                                 Merah buat sister marah, rawrrrr <333

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3) 3/3/21

Okaylah, harini gue donning jubah hitam berkilat ( bahasa omputeh : glittery )  sama shawl warnanya kelabu.

 Busana sebegini tampak  sopan dan ayu  ! 

 Style tudung pula,  kita jadikan labuh menutup serba serbi untuk mengangkat Islamic vibes gitchew sempena subjek Pendidikan Islam 2021 <33

                                                        

                                                     Hitam buat sistur pitammmm <333

                                                   

4) 9/3/21

Today's Chemistry!

 My second favorite subject after English. 

In order to elevate and evoke my Chemistry spirituality ( LOLL) , I wore a mermaid-themed  blue floral designed baju kurung and pastel purple shawl. 

So cantik and bergaya sampaikan pakcik guard terpesona~

AHAKS.

                                                       biru buat abang haru <333

5) 16/3/21

 

LASTTTT 

             PAPERRRRR

poot ..

           poot..

So I was struggling strenuously through the week as I was suffering from last paper syndrome. I had several panic attacks before and I was fearful as I did not learn that much for the Biology test. I prayed to God constantly so that He'll ease and paved the way. Alhamdulillah, all went quite well except kertas 3 HAHAHAHA.

tapi doable lah. 

Maybe my outfit was one of the prime factors that step up my confidence and increase self-esteem?

Hrm, who knows ?

Soooo, teringin tak nak tengok bidadari jatuh dari langit ?

HSHSHSHS

Tadaaaa~

                                                       

                                                    Cream makes my eyes gleam <3333

Pesanan khidmat masyarakat : kepada kaum hawa yang mempunyai abang yang single , sila lampirkan salinan gambar ini kepada abang anda.

HSHSHSSHSH. 

p/s: Saya gurau je >< 

p/s : jangan maroh ><

hashtag nanti cepat tua ! 

In  a nutshell, I am very grateful of my achievement to overcome and rule my own fear.

 Alhamdulillah, all of these  wont happen without the guidance and help from The Omnisicient,The wisest and the most merciful, Allah Azza Wajal.